Typing Hiatus

Lately, I have been rally lazy to write something here in my blog, and I am very sorry for that.

I have been busy doing nothing, no, just kidding, I have been doing some summer workshops for journalism. I have been visiting my alma matter and was sharing some techniques on writing for the newbies. I am in fact, overwhelmed by this. Time flies really fast indeed, it was just yesterday when I was sitting right on their very place but now, I was speaking right in front of them, and not as a novice.

I have been addicted with youtube this week too. And you can never blame me for doing so, for I watch sensible videos, not the trash ones. And I can't stop myself on sharing some of them here.

1. Mikey Bustos

I have seen him on tv patrol before, he was featured there as one of the newest rising star on the internet scene. Back that time I was like "What the hell was he doing? You call that entertainment?" But when I watched all of his videos, man, this really is something. It makes me proud being a Filipino, the videos show how great we are (and our culture) and how unique we can be compared to other races.

Here is a video that emphasizes our unique accent. It doesn't imply to me though.



Shows our great courtship techniques.



Shows our mythical creatures beliefs. I just realized that he was correct, Disney movies dwells with our Filipino beliefs.


Subscribe to his channel! Click here!

2. I Witness Documentaries
So because of the Lenten season, tv networks have changed their show line ups for about a day or four. On GMA 7 (should have paid me for this ad) had made a marathon of their famous documentaries. Ever since I watched some of their documentaries, I have always been fascinated on how they made a story behind a story, get it? Their writers as well as their anchors delivers informations far beyond what is usual for straight news. So i searched the web for some of their best documentaries and landed on these two.

About a deaf mute gay and his lifestyle.

Addiction of the youth, and how they make ridiculous things just to sustain their addiction.

So these were the reasons why Outrageous Writer has been away from typing and writing. But I'll be back really soon.

P.S: Thank you guys for all of your comments and supports on my recent blog posts! Love you so much :)

Modern Noli Me Tangere

I do believe that each and everyone of you have already heard about Noli Me Tangere, one of Jose Rizal's novel before he died for our country. And if you have already been in your junior high school year, I reckon you are already familiar with its story. Honestly,I haven't finished reading it, and I only rely on online summaries whenever I need it (I hope my Filipino teacher won't able to read this). But of course, I am familiar with the whole story itself, and some of its major characters.

And I think, they are alive as of now.

I am not against the Catholic church nor any of their bishops, priests or whatsoever, and this blog post is not a hate message, this just purely my opinion, which I think, would never affect the issue. So if ever you are expecting some trash talk about the Catholic church in the Philippines. Goodbye for now.

I don't support RH Bill.

I guess it would be a promotion of immorality especially among the youth. As far as I know, and do correct me if I am wrong, once the RH Bill is approved, they will be giving out free condoms to everyone who will be needing, no, wanting it.

I as a teenager, knows exactly what is happening among us. I am living on a rural area, which means i guess, less liberated than those who are on the city. But then, my classmates already have condoms on their wallets so they can use it whenever or wherever they wanted to make out, even though it isn't for free yet, then what more could it be if they can get it for like 24 hours and seven days a week? And how much more would it be for those who are on the upper side? Where partying and drugs have some kinda been normal, oh habits perhaps. It would be a chaos.

But I am against the strategy of the Catholic church on pursuing their aim.

For what I have heard from my father, a priest at Baguio Cathedral said off limit comments about Risa Hontiveros, and even sent out those who were supporting RH Bill, it would be utterly useless according to him.

I think they're going too far. I guess the belief of a person would and should never be an excuse on putting boundaries between him and God. The ex-communicate thing, I think its the worst thing about this issue. Its deranged, banning a person on the church because he's against you? Its really unfair. It is not you whom he is going for, its God. And even He, who's above all of us is ready to forgive him? How much more could you?

Making them feel guilty too, it would never be an appropriate action. Guilt is just as bad as lust or gluttony, it builds distance between you and God, for it makes you feel afraid that somehow, He won't accept or forgive you for you have sinned. That is completely far from what the truth is, He will accept you no matter what happened as long as you're ready to surrender and admit the mistake you have done.

So what could be the best solution for the growing number of population?

For me, it would be self-control. Not condoms, not pills, nor abortion. It is just self-control.
These things happened because people have screwed up the true meaning of sex. Yes, it is a gift of God for both man and woman and would be the prior method of reproducing. But as of now, as far as I can see, its just merely for leisure, which is I find, really disturbing. It is even done by a fourteen year old girl, while it should only be inside of a marriage.

But I know these things are planned, and God knows every inch of what is happening, and His answer would be the best solution. If only we can take time to set aside our own stands and opinions and try to meditate and seek for what He could be saying, everything would fall on their proper places. And this modern Noli Me Tangere would come to an end.

The Third Islands

Girl, Boy, Bakla, Tomboy. Girl, Boy, Bakla, Tomboy. Ahh Bakla!! Ahh Bakla!
That was me, ten years ago. I do remember that game where we were all in a big circle then we're gonna chant that phrase over and over again. Lucky for you if you landed to your true gender, its like winning in a lottery that time. But better luck next time for those who won't.

This thing was different ten years ago, but now, I realized that the game I played before is a very serious, and a life long matter perhaps.

In this liberated and modernized world, third sexes are everywhere, but is kinda funny how it isn't still normal for most of us. In spite of its continuous growing number, we are all kinda distant about discussing this issue, or if ever we did, we'll be arguing about it, and what I mean is an endless argument. Maybe because, it isn't really normal.

When asked about my position in this issue, I'll say: I don't support bisexuality, gays or lesbians, but I do respect them.

I know its kinda cliche, and I am quite sure that someone will dizz me because of this disposition, but I really don't care. Its just that I do think that being bisexual isn't really the right thing, and if ever possible, one must avoid it, its a sin, no matter how great your explanation is, at the end of the road its still a mortal offense, and you can do nothing about that.

But there is no point on throwing stones to them. There are still humans, and treating them in the wrong way would even make you worse than them. Instead of judging them, why not help? Help them go through it, or might as well help them change for the better. I myself have lots of bisexual friends in spite of my very young age. I ain't that typical friend who'll say "I'll support you no matter what" or "Whatever you are be proud of it there's nothing wrong" instead, I make sure that they know what they are doing, that it isn't the right thing to do. On the other hand, I assure to them that I'll be there for them on this long and unwinding journey they will about to take for their own good. I supply them advices that will slowly tick their minds, and I'll never stop on doing so.

For me, being bisexual is a choice. It doesn't come naturally.

God only made two sexes, the female and the male, so there's no point on saying that it is natural.

The solution for this problem is a choice too.

Either you'll give in to the temptation or think about the possible consequences, think about what you really are.

Maybe at this age, you'll be expecting me to insist that this is a freedom country, and being who you are, such being bisexual, is one of your prerogatives. I'll say no to that. Freedom isn't being crazy about your independence. Yes, you can do whatever you want provided that you aren't off the bounds, that you aren't doing anything that might affect others or in this case, will affect yourself.

And being bisexual isn't being bipolar too. Lol to that.
I adore girls, but I am absolutely sure that I don't love them in that "way" I really shouldn't. I just like how they are doing things or how they carry themselves. I wanna be like them, not that I wanna be with them. So for those who keep on saying that I ain't gay or lesbian because I like both girls and boys blah-blah, sorry guys, but I don't believe you.

How about you? Yes you? What do you think about the third islands?

Defining the Undefinable

What is love?
As for an elementary student who will answer her bestfriend's slumnote, I guess its Love is a mystery that is full of mystery.
For a highschool freshman that had experience his/her first heartbreak, I reckon it would be Love is when I'm with (State name).
For a great philospher (pilosopo), it'll be Love is pagmamahal.

But for me, the appropriate definition for love depends on the person asked, and the answer is just between the two: Chaos or Nirvana

Chaos:

When I surf around the internet or when I read my mobile phone's inbox, the most common issue the teens have been experiencing, as far as I can see, are flunked romantic love affairs. It comes on different packages: Failed suitors, unnoticed love, friends-turned-to-lovers, third parties, forbidden love, may-december love affair, bisexual love affair and plenty other more love affair that diminished the true essence of the word FAIR.

I have seen some of it in person, and unlike those in movies or in television series, it isn't that easy to cope up or solve the problems related to it. Some of it even grows deeper and deeper that have already affected the way the person feels not just for the other side of the story but also towards her friends, family, God, and even to himself/herself.

I personally, am afraid to it, maybe that's why the idea of being with someone hasn't been touching my mind all this time. I know I ain't strong enough to handle such pains and heartbreaks. And the worst part it, I don't even know if I can even learn to take the risk, even if for the right one.

Nirvana:
I honestly don't believe that you can find this one in a romantic relationship, maybe because I haven't really found it yet or because I have been traumatized with other's deranged love problems.

I think the the only way to be perfectly happy because of love is between You, your Friends, Your Family, and God. Its the only way to be carefree without any worries that tomorrow, when you wake up, you'll have no one.It is where the fair share goes, you love them and they absolutely love you back or even more. You'll never be left with nothing, there would be something or someone to hold on to when everything goes insane.

And also, it come naturally, you don't have to pretend just to be loved, you don't have to be someone else just to be accepted or you don't have to do anything just to have it.

My main inspiration for this post. I actually remember someone when I'm listening to this.

Rejecting the Crown

Yes I am a girl, and I do reject crowns.

I was raised not to be in with such competitions. I never joined any sagala or barangay beauty pageants and will never. Don't get me wrong or anything, I ain't a kill joy but these kinds of stuffs aren't really my thing. I don't even wear heels, yes, even on our Juniors and Seniors Promenade, I was the only one wearing flat sandals.

But in spite of these facts, I do understand why some girls are craving to show how "beautiful" they believe they are. It's just a mere kind of ego-booster right? And also, I do appreciate some of them (only some because I get irritated to most of them) like Maria Venus Raj, Precious Lara Quigaman, Charlene Gonzales and Miriam Quiambao there beauty would just leave you hanging with the question: Where the hell did they came from?!

Last Sunday, I watched the grand coronation night of Bb. Pilipinas 2011, but not because as if I want it, its just there were no options left for me that night- I'm bored, my sister is on the computer, I can't sleep and there was nothing more suitable to watch. I even skip almost 3/4 of it especially when each of them were given the chance to flaunt and walk solo on the stage. Boring.

But the question and answer was very interesting. I found them a little bit... Over Acting. Like for every girl that was asked by the judge, it seemed to me like they were thinking on how they can be different among the others, how they can impress the judges and how they can answer ala-beauty queen. But those things didn't worked for me, because most of them actually forgot the essence of answering it sincerely. I found all of them Fake and Untrue. And some of them, maybe because of their nerves, hadn't even answered the questions correctly.

Lacierda: In spite of these tragedies and calamities happening in this world, what would be the relevance of you winning the crown?

Candidate: Because I believe that if I win the crown I can spread love and peace to everyone... blah blah

(lines not that exact)

Haha. That left my jaw hanging for like one minute straight. I was like:What did she said again? What the f*ck is she talking about?!

Judge: Nobody is perfect. What characteristic of yours you might want to change and why?

Candidate: I can say that I won't change anything about me. And I am proud to say that my imperfectness had brought me here.

At the beginning I wasn't that impressed or might as well I was irritated. But when she said the second line, it made me smile though, this girl has it.

But my fearless forecast- none of them will win on the international competition, especially the one hailed as the Miss Universe. I don't find here interesting or edgy, unlike Venus Raj. I bet the judges wouldn't even notice her. She's just beautiful, confident, fake, insincere and i think a little bit bitchy.

But still I would pray for their victory, who knows? maybe i made a very wrong impression. Our country's name is still on their hands and on that I can not do anything.

Before the Dessert

Life as it is, is never fair.
For a country like the Philippines, where fast food chains are all over the place and different forms of diet are being practiced, it is funny how poverty and hunger is still alive. As they say, hunger would be the worst nightmare to anyone, it can even surpass death. If that so, then these people on the video have lived in a life of growing, howling, and excruciating nightmare.

Before, my mom would always say to me "Ubusin mo yang kinakain mo dahil maraming batang nagugutom." I didn't took her seriouly that time, I would even reply "Bakit? Kapag naubos ko ba to mabubusog ba sila? Magkakabit ba ang bituka namin?". But now, as I have realized the worst things about life, how I wish I would return back time, and get back to those plates I have wasted before. It is not that I can help them by doing so, its more of a respect and sympathy for them.

I use almost four hours on net surfing, and with that I can almost stumble upon anything. I use to see teenage girls complain about the guy who threw them up or how bad the dress in (State store name here); or the teenage boys who would give a sh*t to everyone because they lost a game or would kill (State network company here) 's moderators for giving him such a slow internet/mobile service.

I myself is guilty. I curse everyone. I curse life. I curse the whole world for such small things.

But we guys are the luckiest. We haven't experienced sleeping with growing stomachs nor eating spoiled foods or strangers' leftovers. We are all able to go to school hassle free, unlike those who would literally climb a mountain just to get to their school or even worse, haven't gotten the chance of simply stepping into one, so don't give a damn to your teachers or the subject Math. We are even using stuffs maybe they haven't even heard of. Computers, cellphones, iPods and plenty other more we use to upgrade every two months.

But we cannot make a sudden change. Not now.

We can't just sell our things and give the proceeds to them or we can't just throw stones to our government for them to realize what we have thought of.

Like the old saying goes: "Ubusin mo yang kinakain mo dahil maraming batang nagugutom."

Let us just treasure the things we have and be thankful about it. And don't give a f*ck for simple things you don't even need.

And hey, before reaching out for the dessert, see to it that you have finished the main course already :)

Wishing for an Athlete's Foot

Oh no but not the itchy one.

Since the very first day I have waved hello to the Earth, I haven't been that excellent in the field of sports. You may say that maybe I haven't found the right sport for me yet but believe me, I have been thinking that way for almost fifteen years but still, I can't find that sport my destiny is talking about, or maybe it isn't discovered yet.

Late at night, before going to sleep, I'll be dreaming about a very weird scene in my head. I am a girl. I am strong. And I am hell good on sports! I can run as fast as anyone, I am as strong as any boy, I am as accurate as the best players and I some kinda have a long hair, on which I will eventually sweep away that will take all their breaths away.

But out all these fantasies.

I am a girl. I am weak. And I ain't good on sports.

Maybe this is why I have a thing for good athletes. My friends have noticed that all my crushes have been those athletic ones, and they were correct, I never had a crush with a rock star (except for Miggy Chavez of course) or a boy-next-door. It has always been those with balls.

Here is a conversation between me and my friends:
Girl-Friend (volleyball player): You guys screwed up on your last game!
Boy- Friend (basketbll player): Yeah right cut it out. Blame it on Jamex, he was our center, but he acted as if he was our point guard! Enough of this, how's your group's standing?
Girl- Friend (volleyball plyer): 5-0 one more win and hello championship!
Me: . . . . .

Because some of my friends are athletic, I happen to be the one sitting on the audience and cheering to death for them. I had almost got into a cat fight before because of a game, good thing they were able to cool down that girl. I am always cheering in the irritating way, well in fact I don't cheer for my group, I cheer the way their opponents would be ultimately pissed off to the point they won't be able to play the game well. Pretty strategy right? Yeah but super dangerous.

But I won't lose this damn hope.

Keep These Films Rolling

I am not that addicted to movies like I am with music. I watch some movies occasionally only when I am on a good mood. I don't go to the movie theater every month or I don't stalk celebrities that much. But then, here are the movies that got to my nerves since the first time I have watched them. (By ranking)

1. A Walk to Remember

I get it, I'm hopeless romantic. I love the idea of a cute and hard headed guy will eventually change because of his love for a girl. And this movie had in fact made me wish that I am on Jaime's shoes, except of course on the fact that she will eventually die. I love it how the movie went on, especially when Landon made every Jaime's wishes come true. I actually bought the original book, but sad to say I wasn't that satisfied. It wasn't that magical as it was on the movie screen, and it didn't have my favorite scenes.

2. Lion King 1, 2 and 3

If you will ever ask on how my childhood had gone, just watch Lion King and you'll know it. When I was like three to our years old, it has been my daily habit to watch the Lion King on our VHS. Its soundtracks were also my lullabies before. Then when I have learnt about its sequel I nearly died out of excitement! The second installment was as good as the first one and so was the third! It was damn hilarious!

Photo Not Mine

3. 500 Day of Summer

I love this movie. Again, I am being hopeless romantic in here. I like it how Tom loved Summer very much. And I like every lines Summer said, especially her philosophy about love, its just so "persuasive"? haha. It also shows the reality about love, unlike those korean films or tv series that shows impossible scenes between couples. Yuck.

4. Charlie and the Chocolate Factory

Nothing more to say. I reckon everyone loves the idea of living inside a chocolate factory right? Especially when it likes Willy Wonka's! And I also like the message of the movie about how important the family is.

5. Country Strong and Camp Rock 1, 2

I love Leighton Meester forever, so when my sister uploaded this on her iPod I watched it just because of Leighton. I actually skipped some parts just to see where Leighton will appear but apparently I was interested on the storyline and I watched it from beginning to the end. The song selection was good. Gwyneth Paltrow did avery good job (and of course my Leighton!)

I love Demi Lovato too, she is my favorite teen star, well she is the only ten star I liked. I also love the song selections of the movie!

So what do you think guys? How about you, what are your favorite movies?

Adieu

The day I have been trying to deny had already came.

As I have said on my last post, everything ends, and so are the happy days of high school life. I wouldn't be that dreamy to say "hey its for our own good", "hey we better accept this one " or "hey its our first step towards success" but instead, I will express it in three words: THIS SHIT SUCKS (BIG TIME).

I guess I have found all the greatest first's in my life on my high school level: my first crush, my first heart break (but not a boyfriend), first gold medal, first bitch fight and probably the best, first true friends.

They said that high school life is the best, I didn't understand them way back then during my elementary days. I thought what would be better than lollipops, candies, playtimes and a carefree life? But now, I realized that these things are still the best, only that it would be better if you will do it with those people who can ride on with you all throughout your craziness. So being a high school student, is better than the best.

So as you can see we barely see each other yesterday, yet we are already planning our reunion!

Call it korny or whatsoever, we just can't help it!!

The fruits of the ass-pains! Hahaha :)

But now I wonder, what would I be after this?

And by the way, I'll be an active blogger again! (I promise)